Okay…
Deep breaths…
I’m preggers.
HOW DID THIS HAPPEN?!?!
Needless to say, this baby is an out-of-the-blue surprise. Sure, I wasn’t using anything, but—hello? It was kind of hard to have Elizabeth! It took about 4 months of ovulation charts (I even took my temperature every morning) and a certain alignment of the sun, moon, and stars.
5 years later I’m a member of the Super Fertiles? What happened to my PCOS? (What the heck, ovaries! You told me you were screwed up! LIARS!)
I’m sadly unprepared. With Elizabeth, I popped extra doses of folic acid and memorized “What to Expect” chapters. Peeing on the stick was exciting! When it was positive, Kevin and I hugged and jumped up and down before calling everyone we knew.
Umm…this time was a little different.
I pulled a left-over prego stick out of the bathroom closet because I’m weird and every few months like to play the “Maybe I’m pregnant?” game and pee on sticks. (It’s always negative and I can be sort of sad and relieved for a minute and go buy more pads. Don’t judge.) I started my bath water, stripped my clothes off, and peed on the stick…then stared in horror as the HAHA YOU’RE SCREWED line appeared almost instantly.
Kevin (and Elizabeth) walked in on me a few minutes later and found Mommy naked and slumped on the floor holding a used pee stick. Kevin said, “What are you doing?” then whispered, “Are you pregnant?” over E’s head.
My face crumpled and I cried in despair while Kevin excitedly hugged me and Elizabeth poked me saying, “Mommy, you’re naked.”
(Ah. Memories for the baby book.)
Kevin is thrilled. (Who is this happy guy and what happened to my moody husband?) Elizabeth is excited to share her bedroom with the baby. (That will change the first night home from the hospital.)
As for me…well, none of this feels real. I have zero pregnancy symptoms. I have no clue when my last period was and can only guess at a general due date. I’m on a strong anti-depressant for cripes sake! This is NOT the perfect time in my life for contentedly rubbing my belly and dreaming of a happy family of four! This is just…absurd.
But with God there are no accidents. He has promised to “work all things together for good” and that He knows “the plans I have made for you…plans to prosper you and not harm you.” I’m also taking this as a clear sign that my marriage is meant to survive (dare I even say thrive?). He knows what He’s doing.
I am grieving for the 20 pounds I lost this summer…and the small jeans I just bought…the morning sickness that’s going to hit any day now…the Couch to 5K program in the trash…the sheer exhaustion of the first trimester…and LABOR.
Gah!
I can’t wrap my mind around this.
35 comments:
{hugs}
I have been reading your blog for months and thought I was a follower...so sorry about that!
I am a follower now!
Smooches,
Sassy Chica
nicely written post, I wish you all the best!!
don't give up on the 5k run, you can still run.
I think that you are so right, God knows what he is doing. This was meant to be. It is the healing that you need, the new beginning.
Congratulations!
"But with God there are no accidents. He has promised to “work all things together for good” and that He knows “the plans I have made for you…plans to prosper you and not harm you.” I’m also taking this as a clear sign that my marriage is meant to survive (dare I even say thrive?). He knows what He’s doing"
Amen!
1. I'm glad the hiatus is over
2. My big "surprise" is 4 weeks old and I couldn't love her more even though she really did change up everything I thought I had figured out about running this home and family.
3. I stayed active throughout the pregnancy (had no choice, really), and am much lighter at 4 weeks post-partum than I was with any of my other kids. So that 20 lbs. and Couch to 5K work will pay off in the end.
The good news is you have 9 months to wrap your head around it! You'll (and everyone else!) will be fine! I totally understand your shock (believe me, I do...) but in a week or two, you'll be excited!
Congrats again!
There are some anti depressants that are safe to take, so if you can't take the one you're on, ask about options. I take Wellbutrin and Zoloft, the former I'll wean off by the end of this month then stay off until just after birth. The latter is safe to stay on (thankfully).
I have found a lot of great support at the babycenter.com site- there is a group for antepartum/postpartum.
Treat yourself well. Enjoy everyone else's joy, and trust that everything is as it should be.
{{hugs}}
Your post are so funny, Can't believe you can make a post funny about a suprise preggo, but you can! Dang that sucks about the 20 pounds lost and the 5K you was going to run, Hey- who knows, maybe this can be the cute little Hollywood preggers, where you wear cute little clothes and run marathons till the end of your pregnancy?! Come on give me laugh?! not that you cant do that at all:) Glad your back!
God works in lives in mysterious ways! This little angel may be just what your world needs!
Whew, right?
Great post...very much like you're just talking to us :).
Congratulations! It's kinda hard to be prepared for new little lives sometimes isn't it?
Congrats! That's awesome. I know you've been through the wringer lately, but this is wonderful news and I hope you know there are plenty of strangers out there rooting you on.
Karen
I'll be thinking and praying for you. **Hugs**
Once the shock wears off, the excitement will come. Just think of all the adorable baby stuff you get to buy. I love shopping for babies!
Again, congratulations!
I'm yelling a big congrats because my somewhat of a suprise will be here in the next week. I know it seems scary and crazy right now, but as it get closer everything will work itself out. Good luck and best wishes on a uneventful and easy pregnancy.
P.S. I am so glad you are back. The days that you post you are the highlight of my day.
Oh.My.Gosh!
I'm so glad you're back!
I'm so excited your preggy!
And I'd give you a big ole hug and a chocolate milk shake if I was there! God does know what He's doing...hang on for the ride!
~~~hugs~~~~
God never makes a mistake....you'll soon be happy ... well maybe
That is awesome that you have such a great outlook on your pregnancy :)
Wishing you a happy 9 months!
Congrats :)
Congrats!
Based upon everything I've read over the past few months, I'm happy Kevin is thrilled about the baby.
I hope when the shock wears off, you'll be just as happy.
I'm so happy for you!! I have PCOS, too. But sadly I have to go through hell to conceive.
Yay! You're pregnant!
Congratulations!
That is the funnest post I've seen all week. And at you expense! Ha! I'm still giggling! Perhaps it is because I remember that surprise pee stick that made me collapse in a heap at the doctor's office as I explained, "I already have a baby."
Welcome to the club.
Or perhaps it is because I have survived something similar to your marital woes and I'm gleeful at your news.
Or maybe it is because I have four beautiful children and my tubes are tied.
Your membership in this club is not welcome at this time.
Congratulations.
Hopefully this is the new beginning you both wanted and that it will help to "round out" your relationship even more.
I bet Elizabeth is just beside herself - she's going to be a big sister!
{{{hugs}}}
God has a reason for everything even when you don't understand. Congrats and drink some orange juice asap..
WOAH. I hadn't read in a while, and needless to say it was an interesting catch up! Goodluck with the pregnancy! Aghh, i can't believe it!
Hey missy, I know it feels like odd timing (so did my pregnancy), but God has a purpose for this little one! I will be prayin for you!
Wow! I am in shock! After all that I have been through with you----I am surprised by this turn of events....
Good luck, my dear---hang in there!!
holy crap
Wow!
First, kudos to Kevin for the great reaction. yay!
And umm you don't have to stop the C25K yet. It's only 9 weeks, and you can run later than that. I think. I wouldn't know because I didn't run when pregnant, but the theory sounds good so you can complete your goal, right?
I live in fear of that moment!
I hate to say I have that fear. I'm happy and sad for you. Whatever you need. No more words of wisdom than that.
wow jaci CONGRATS!
WOW! First off, congratulations. I know it's a surprise, but hopefully it will end up being a good one.
This is one of those situations I hear about and think, that baby must be MEANT TO BE. There's a reason for this, I have to believe that. Maybe it's a whole new start for your family.
Also, definitely talk to your doctor about any medication issues - I took antidepressants through my pregnancy and my son is totally fine. Going off your meds while pregnancy hormones rage through your body is not the best idea!
I have nothing to add to the good advice and support from the other commenters, so I'll just say (((hugs))).
My first thought in reading this was WOO-HOO.. Jaci and her husband are back to getting it on ;)
I know the holy crap what just happened feeling of that second blue line showing up...
hugs... baby's don't fix anything, but they are well worth it. The silver lining in all of this (from my perspective) is that you two are clearly carrying on martial relations.. .and that's a great start in the right direction...
p.s glad to see you back.. finding that blog doesn't exist message was depressing.. you crack me up
Congratulations...!
did I mention that this happened to my close friends who went through a similar time?
It's been a part of the healing for them. They named their child Eliana, Hebrew for "God has heard my cry"
I'm further convinced that God knows what He's doing, and yes. Your marriage is meant to THRIVE and you're getting to write a whole new love story with a joyful surprise in chapter 1(ish)!
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Congratulations! :)
I hadn't read your blog in a while, so I'm just getting caught up! Congratulations on the pregnancy. Even though my husband and I were trying for #2 it has taken me awhile to even feel pregnant. I'm so glad you undeleted your blog to join us again, and you are right there are NO mistakes when it comes to God's planning.
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