Cradle swings. are. AWESOME.
My friend sent me home with her swing after Elodie spent all evening contentedly sucking on a blanket at her house while Kevin and I looked at each other like, "What happened to our screaming kid?" It kicks my 2005 back-and-forth model's ass.
Today? I actually got a shower after Kevin left for work. I know. Incredible. I'm relaxing. I'm letting her fuss. I'm not letting the screams eat at my soul. I'm not panicked that she'll somehow die if I leave her side before she's 100% asleep.
Going back on Lexapro helps, too.
This sounds so freaking cheesy, but I'm going to say it anyway. After one week of meds, I'm me again. I can look around and see that it's summer. And life is good. And my children are cute and funny and a joy to be around. And staying home with them is a blessing--not a burden.
The anger is dissolving away. All the misery and discontentment and negativity is draining out of me. I can put a hard day in perspective and see the humor in life again--not just bitter sarcasm.
Life is on the upswing.
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Totally know what you mean....about the swing and the meds!
So happy to read this post today, Jaci.
yay!
Glad you're feeling like yourself again!! The swing plus meds plus happy Jaci = good good good!
So happy to read this. & the cradle swing saved whatever shred of sanity I had left.
Lexapro is my "drug of choice." I call them my happy pills because without them, I am a monster due to anxiety. Sadly, some people think that there is something "wrong" if you have to take meds to be "happy" (aka normal). Those people need to live one month in my body when I don't have them. Then they will understand! I'm glad you are beginning to get back to normal.
The swing is awesome. My daughter used one very similar with my grandson. He loved it!
That is so great to read!!! I'm glad you're happy and that Little E loves her cradle swing. Don't you wish they made one for adults, too?
I'm so relieved that you're happy again. Life is totally different when you can wake up without that feeling of dread washing over you before you even open your eyes.
I know it. I've been there.
For me, Living with meds was a battle with acceptance - I never wanted to be "one of those people" who needed meds in order to cope. I guess I wanted to be tough as nails and just power through my regular crying jags, depression, and screaming at the kids. That last one was the straw that broke the camel's back: I realized that one little pill doesn't make me "less". If anything, I am MORE - more happy, more confident, more caring, more patient.
I'm happy that I'm off the meds now but I still try to watch myself from an objective point of view and if I ever felt myself slipping again, I would go back on them in a heartbeat. No question.
That is so awesome! My oldest would not stop crying for like 3 months. I believe I had my first nervous breakdown right around week 5. I cried and cried and thought sure I was the worst mom in the history of the world. Relax and enjoy =) Hope it works till the colic is over.
That's great!
And she's super cute in that little swing.
This makes me smile.
yay! I dont have one of those. Maybe its time I invest in one. Everytime I attempt to put Kase down, he wakes up and cries; only sleeps being held. grrrr. Glad you found something that seems to work!
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