After dropping Elodie off at Grandma's this morning and trying to shift from Mom to Jaci The Hawt MILF Office Grunt, it hit me that my life is incredibly busy.
I love it.
Kindergarten has added this whole new dimension to our family life, from making sure we're at the bus stop on time to talking about how Elizabeth loathes Miss OMG's song about "Going to the Mat" and lessons on the alphabet. "I already KNOW that, Mom! I'm not a BABY! I don't SING."
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| OG! To the mat for story time! Tra-la-la-la-LAAA! |
I'm signing up for PTO events, planning Sunday School lessons, trying to squeeze in Toddler Story Time at the library for Elodie, running home to meet the Kindergarten bus at noon, cooking, battling laundry...oh, yeah, WORK...
I'm extremely busy, but after so many years of Sit-On-Your-Butt-While-Dora-Blares-in-the-Background-and-You-Slowly-Die-Inside... This? IS BLISS.
Every day, I'm up, dressed and ready to walk Elizabeth to the bus stop--whether I'm working that day or not. It's a rule I made for myself. I used to drive past a bus stop on my way to work and had such rage for the mothers in pajamas.* It was 9 am. I wanted to lean out the window and scream, "I've been up since 6:30. I fed and clothed a toddler PLUS myself. Your kid is 7, but you can't even put on pants?!?"
All that rage was really pointed at Old Jaci who spent two years struggling to shower because of The Baby, when really? I was massively depressed and purposeless in my new mom/SAHM role.
If the MIL hadn't moved into town and offered *FREE! DAYCARE!* I don't know what would have happened to me. Zoloft and Lexipro can only do so much, you know? At some point you have to find meaning in your life--and for me (FOR ME, I SAID)--SAHMdom with a toddler and long stretches of Open Time To Do Whatever doesn't do it for me. I work best when my life is crammed full and I fall into bed happy and exhausted.
I want to make out with this Super Busy School stage. Maybe fall asleep spooning it. Luuurrve it.
If any new moms still read me: I swear to you, on a stack of Reese's Peanut Butter Cups, it gets so much better. If you're Type A (like me) you'll find your groove with school. Not Dora. We can still be Cool Moms!
Umm. Not that kind of cool mom. I was thinking more relatable to older kids...instead of peaking at the toddler stage... Good lord, are we still going to be sporting elastic waist pants when our kids are in HIGH SCHOOL?!?
Hmm. I just lost my point. Meh. It's gone now.
*I realize those mothers could work midnight shift/have newborns/spent all night cooking meth in their kitchens/have a full leg cast and can't wear pants thereby making me a judgmental asshole. I'm okay with this.
14 comments:
I think I am exactly like you...except I am still sitting at home high on happy pills and hating Dora the Explorer. Time to get the hell outta here.........
So happy that you are happy and feeling fulfilled. I have many SAHM friends and I'm definitely NOT that person. My half SAHM/ half WM scenario is working well for me.
P.S. I like your rule about the bus stop.
Finding our own road, is what takes life from an endless trip to nowhere into a journey filled with wonderful discoveries and joy! Everyone's road is different but when it's the right one for you, it changes everything!
I love being busy & I think I sort of thrive on chaos, ha-ha. That whole staying at home thing is for the birds. I'm glad you're not longer depressed & are enjoying your chaos :)
I've always wondered.....just WHEN did it become okay to wander about in public in your p.j.'s anyway???
Seriously?
I ran into McDonald's one morning to grab a drink before heading to work. I wasn't wearing anything special; just the usual skirt/heels combo of all office grunts. As I was headed out the door this woman/girl in ratty p.j. bottoms and her hair in a rat's nest stopped me to tell me how nice I looked. I thanked her; but was thinking "WTH?!!!? Ummm, you could look nice too if you made an effort to put some clothes on and brush your hair!"
I'm so glad you are realizing it gets better. And it DOES. Although, I won't tell you that the issues get bigger as they do. Nope. I won't say a word about that just yet. ;-)
Enjoy your busy-ness!
Oh man, this is what I needed to hear today. My son JUST started preschool yesterday on a M,W,F schedule and with today being Thursday, it' been really hard. We've been back to the same ol' Nick Jr-watching day and I have already boiled over once. I have discovered that I really do better with structure. I can only clean the same mess 50 times before I completely lose it!
So glad I am not alone! :) I nearly went bonkers from boredom just on my 8 weeks of MATERNITY leave! I never even considered SAHM status. I am a teacher and summers alone are tough! We GO EVERYWHERE! We don't even save money on daycare in the summer because we spend it on entertaining ourselves! :)
You are awesome. That is all...except to add that "OG! To the mat for storytime!" will have me giggling all day long.
You are so on point with the pj's at the bus stop. There is an insane person at my bus stop who is some poor kindergartener's mother and she wears the same XMAS performance fleece pants from the Old Navy, EVERY. DAY. Even in June. I hate her guts.
Where'd you go Jaci?
Where are you? Missing your posts...
I think Jaci put on pajama pants and then felt guilty about screaming at the bus stop moms. ;)
Seriously. Come out of hiding.
Hey! Where did you go???
I only wear pj's taking kids to school in the car! :) Bus stop, no way!
LOL, loved this post!
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